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[17 Jul 2006|10:20pm] |
haha last night i was mad fucked up again, and i barely remember any of it
i remember going to alyssas house and getting safety pins to put ove my boxers cause we were going swimming and alyssa told me i had like 12 safety pins lmao. and then she said that i said "well i wouldn't want to get an erection would i?" lmao i dont remember saying that at all. and i remember being in the pools and dunking meghan and thats basically it. goddd its so fuun.
today i went to the pallisades with alyssa her cousin and her mom dad and brother. alyssa her cousin and me split up and went to different stores. booyyy that mall is big lol i was so tired. after that i went back to alyssa's and then i went home ate dinner and went to the gym with cailin for about and hour and fifteen minutes. i dont think i ever sweat that much in my life holy shit. and then i came home and showered. ive been mad busy lately i feel like i have a life. saturday im leaving for florida im sooo exciteeed :) :) i cant wait to see britney too i miss her i havnt hung out with her in forever. wellll im gonna go play sims later
lovetone
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[16 Jul 2006|07:52am] |
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well i just wrote up and entrie post but i pressed the backbuttont. lol
i havnt really written in this thing since ebfore i wentt o MA, well MA sucked.
the last couple nights have been really weird.
friday i went to meaghans and i had some hydrocodone (like oxycodone) andd its suppose to get you really high, so within like fifteen minutes i was laughing and then i was being a dick to meaghan cause i wanted more and i was in a bad mood, and i felt bad afterwars, lol. then i went to amandas later on and i wasn't really high anymore. after a few hours of being there and talking and stuff i went on the computer, and after a while i was like "i dont feel good i feel dizzzy i think im going to lie down" so i went to lie down and asked amanda if i could have some water. so we went to the kitchen and she gave me water, and ieverything was all blurry,fuzzy, and grey and distant and weird. so i went to go back to her room and i collapsed on her hallway floor mad hard and amanda told me she was like tone tone, and i guess i didnt here but, but then like 5 seconds later i heard "do you know you just felll?" and i said yeah and i got up holding my arm because it got a cut on it somehow, and then i heard a buzzing sound in my head for like 30 seconds and everything was fine. it was kind of freaky at first btu then we just laughed i off lol. after that whole situation we kept talking for a little and we went and got ice cream at stewarts it was mad good.
YESTERDAY, i slept until like 2pm, and picked up meaghhan at work around 5:30 and we headed over to the new windsor coach diner. i saw katie which i havn't seen in a while so that was cooo'. i ordered onion rings and a quesillda (sp?), and meg ordered mozerella (sp?) sticks, lol. after that we went home and played some n64, and we decided to go out in my backyard. i took a sleeping pill cause its suppose to get you high and hallucinate if you stay up, so after like 30 minutes i was laughing a lot, and then we went for a wwalk,when we got back to my house, i had another one, and we watched tv until she ha to go home. after that i went over to alyssas, and i coudnt even fucking walk straight i barely remember what happened lol. i remember going into the pool (willingly) with my boxers on? lol and then i remember making a whirl pool andi kept thinking there were a lot of people there but there was only like..three lol. after some people left we got changed anddd i dont remember much else but i think we went to go lay down in the street or something? and then alyss turned her swing into a chair? i have nooo idea. and then my mom picked me up, and i went home. after my parents went to sleep i felt like i was going to throw up so i remember like throwing up going downstairs and into the sink. omg i havnt thrown up sine i was like 5. lol. i NEVER throw up. but thats the last thing i remember. and i kept waking up in the middle of the night, and now its 8am and im really bored. i think im suppose to help my dad at his job or something today and i get paid for it, so i guess thats okay :) im gonna go eat cause im starvviiiing.
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[05 Jul 2006|01:39am] |
im watching dr. 90210. i love this show, it almost makes me wanna become a plastic surgeon. ONLY its mad work, and i dont trust myself haha.
aaaanyways. yesterday was maddd fuun. i went to cronomer/algonquin park for the fireworks. i went with meaghan and we went to brandis, and her and her friends smoked. then we went down to the park and me and meg had to find becky. soo then we just walked around more saying hi to peoplee. i wish i saw brandddii mooore :( i kept seeing steven, and he couldn't find brandi, i felt baddd. BRANDI YOU AND YOUR STUPID CELL PHONE, jkkk :) then the fireworks came, they were alriight. me and meg sat with becky and tory.
today: fourth of jiullllly. i hung out with meaghan all day :) and we went out in the raaain and had mad fuuun.later on we went to the new windsor coach with katie fraine, and becky met us there. it was mad gooood i had onion rings, and grilled cheeseee :) then we went to the cornwall fireworks, and saw more people i knewww. it was pretty fun, then it started raining, i didnt mind thooo. the fireworks were pretty good, but there wasn't a big finale or w/e cause something with a fuse? iidddk, but they were good nevertheless. then me meg and katie walked to the middle school and drove home.
im going to massachusettes tomorrow :( i really ddoooont wanna go cause im gonna miss meaghan soo much, and whenever me and my family go to massachusettes we always fight, its mad annoying :( and then ill end up getting in trouble, blah blah. oooh welll.
tuesday i should be hangin outt with kaitlyn :) soo it shoould be prettty fuuun. :) okay wweeell im ouut night
love, tone
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[02 Jul 2006|01:50am] |
today was great. i went to amandas around two. we atttee, and then drove off to the newburgh mall. took care of some things (HAHA IT SOUNDS LIKE IM THE THE MOB, no just kidding). and i bought sunglassses and she bought a cd and magazines or something.
after the mall, we drove to cronomber hills. it was amazziing. i'll post pictures at the end of the post. afterwards, we went to dairy queen :) and then went to meadow hills school and took some more pictures :) after that i went to amandas, and they drove me home.
on the way home, we had to drop off amandas brother as someones birthday party, andd it was alisons, her mom had NO idea who i was, even though shes known me since i was like..born, haha.
then i went home, and meaghan came over, and hadd moreee of an amazzzing day :) we walked around garden & then layed a sheet in my backyard and just layed/sit there, and i ate food, we talked listened to music, and then i took some picturesss :)
nowww im boooreed.
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[29 Jun 2006|08:58pm] |
i'm annoying.
and a bad boyfriend.
and im getting fatter.
and i keep changing my mind about livejournal.
ooh wellll.
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[27 Jun 2006|05:36pm] |
so i guess one thing i learned today was: don't ever be honest when you don't need to be. at least with your parents anyways.
last night i went running at like 2:00 in the morning with britney, and i left a note for my parents blah blah. so this morning i thought id tell my mom and be hoenst, because i truely didn't do anything wrong. so basically i got it thrown back in my face with: "you should pick a more respectable time," or "how do i know you weren't out smoking." whenever i do something good for myself, something bad always comes out of it. but when i do something bad, nothing happens.
so i was doing something, and the next thing i know, britney calls me and tells me that my dad came to her house and told her parents. they didn't care at all, because its the most retarded thing in the world. she left a note, blah blah, and her dad even left the lights on, and the door unlocked for when she got back inside.
so when i was walking downstairs to go to alyssa's, my mom said i couldn't because i was grounded. ................
is there really a reason for me to be grounded, i mean come on, i didn't even do anything. I WAS RUNNING. maybe i should go out for often at 2:00 in the morning and go smoking. i knew i shouldnt have told my parents, but w/e.
so i was watching tv in the den and my mom came in and sat with me, so after a while i said i was going upstairs. and she was all blah blah why can't you just sit here and watch tv with me. EXCUSE ME BUT YOU JUST FUCKING GROUNDED ME FOR NO REASON. stupid cunt. whatever. they're old, i hope they die soon or something, or maybe someone will adopt me! im not trying the "not going home" thing again, because they basically went to everyones house and looked for me. okay well i think my dads home now, so we're going to "talk" and maybe i'll get to go out later.
the only reason theyre fucking idiots it cause they only have me to focus on, and theyre as old as jesus, so they have nothing better to do, which is YET ANOTHER REASON WHY I WISH I HAD A SIBLING.
ookaay im out
lovetone
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[26 Jun 2006|11:28pm] |
inhaling whip cream is bad for you. lmao
friday: haircut & later on i went out to eat with my mom day, and meaghan. it was really nice. me and meaghan walked along the river while we waited for our food to come. we went to cena 2000.
saturday: saw meg in the morning and then my brother came, and then i went to alyssa's surprise party. it was reallly fun i had a good time :)
sunday: went to brandi's with meg and played some ddr, and the met up with brandi's boyfriend, steven in the park. brandi, steven, and me smoked, im glad meg didnt cause i dont like when she does, lol
afterwards, me and meg went to my house. and brought her home at ten.
today i went and saw click with lexie. it was an okay movie. it was more sad than it was funny. really really sad, lol.
i was gonna go to meaghans but i guess i was getting an attiude with my parents that i wasn't aware of. but whatever.
im gonna go download some stuff for the sims,and then play the sims, lol
LOVETONE
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wednesday: so i failed the chem regents. haha. i didnt know anything and for the written part i just rewrote the question lmao. after that i hung out with alyssa an chiara (sp?) then i went home, and then went out again to chill with lexie, alyssa, and chiara at b&n. it was nice.
thursday: i didn't do much all daaay. my dad took me to school today to get this thing for a two week course for chemistry & math. then i got my working card or something.
at around 6, alyssa came over, and we headed over to lexie's. we made food, and ate. i inahaled the stuff from whip cream. lmao. YO, mad scary, but funny as hell. after that we ate more and talked, and cristina (sp?) came over. we ate more, talked more, and played jenga haha.
im started to not like meaghans mom more and more. im so jealous of how everyone else is allowed to see their boyfriend/girlfriend whenever they wwant. when seeing them a lot is considered a good thing. but with meaghans mom, its the exact opposite. apparently i see too much of her..? i havn't seen her since sunday, and i miss her so much. and i know im being kind of selfish, but she works so much now, and urgh. and i want my parents to be more lenient (sp?). i wish i could just go out in the middle of the night, maybe just for a walk, or to talk with a friend.
i hate how i have no family that lives near me or anything, and how i havve no siblings. i wish i did, :/. and mad people have been having birthday parties, and graduations. the only reason why i dont want a birthday party or when i graduate, is cause im embarassed of my parents :/. oh well. i cant wait until i go to college, CALLIIIFORRNIIIA is where im aiming.
im suree i could write more but w/e
lovetone
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[20 Jun 2006|10:25pm] |
whoooaa. im typing like im on speed or something. so i need to type, so i figured i'd update.
today was a pretty fun filled day. haha. i woke up, ate, and then britney came over. we smoked in my backyard outtta the good ol' can :) i remember britney pointing out a random cat in my backyard, and was like "YOU DON'T HAVE A CAT?!" lmao, and then we laughed, and looked back and it was gone. it was hilarious. so then we walked to midway, and britney got mee a drink :) then we shared a slice of pizza.
when we got back to my house, britney made a (bong?) out of a water bottle, it works SO GOOD. cause it traps in the smoke so you get more, haha. and then we went inside my house, and then she left around 2:00. i walked her to her house stayed for a few minutes, and then went to alyssas. i was trying to make plans with her but i was so confused, haha. meaghan couldnt hang out so i called alyssa and went to her house. her friends rachel & nicole were there and i didn't wanna go swimming, so i ate and ate and ateee, then slept a little. uuum then they went to kevin g.'s house or something and i'm not friends with him, sooo i went home.
took a shower, studied for a bit, and then played the sims2.
i really have an unhealthy obsession with the sims. its horrible. haha oh well. I JUST MOVED MY FAMILY INTO A TOWNHOUSE HOUSE THOUGH! lmao. okay well im gonna go meaghan should be calling me soon, and then i have to go study, WISH ME GOOD LUCK ON THE REGENTS TOMORROW!
lovetone
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[19 Jun 2006|11:35pm] |
today was oreettty good.
i went to alyssas, had a sandwhich and then we walked to sports plex. stayed there for an hour, and got madddd exhausted, then walked back to her house. chilled in her room and watched tv for a bit, and then rode bikes and then went to my house, and had some ice pops :)
then we rode back to alyssas, and we went to midway. i ran, and she rode her bike, and i STILL finished before her :) it was madd tirinnnng. i got a red bull and a gatorade, IT WAS SOOO GOOD. then we went back to her house (i ran again). i went home, and it started raining. so i took my dog outside and we stayed in the rain, lol. it was really refreshing :)
then i let him inside and stayed out for a few more minutes. then went insdie ate, played sims, and blahh. i hope my summer isnt like this. think its only because my mom has work, but i really wish i could stay out later :/
i didnt study for chem today. :/ i really need to, i have one more day :(
i know im gonna fail it, but stillll. urgh w/e.
i should have a pretty fun filled weeeeek. tomorrow im seeing meaghan, and then wednesday i have regents idk what im doing after that tho. thursday meaghan, friday meaghan, saturday alyssa's, and sunday brandis. :) i hope i get to see daniela soooooooon. i havnt hung out with her in a looonnng ass time. i need more friends tho.
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today i felt like i had a life:
i went running, but i couldnt run a mile without stopping. it was sooo hot outside.i felt tingling in my arms and legs. then i went home, showered, got dressed/ready, and picked up my grandma.
we went out to eat at this country club my dad belongs to because he has to spend a certain amount of money at the restuarant there, something retarded. it took so long, but i had a chicken quesidilla (sp?) andd grilled cheese with onion rings. it was SO good.
after that we dropped off my grandma at her apartment, and she gave me $20 :). then we went to the mall, and i made meaghan a bear at build-a-bear because i wanted to get her something cause i love her so muuuch and shes the best girrrlfriiiend ever. :) i didn't know what to get her, so amanda suggested that. i had to rub the heart in my hands, make a wish, kiss it, and put it in the bear. so now the bears heart has a cold sore <3. then we went to american eagle, spent a hundred and something dollars there, haha. I LOVE MY MOOMMM :). i gotttt two pairs of shorts and matching shirts to go with em.
AFTER the mall, i went back home, studied for an hour, and then headed over to meaghans. i watched meaghan put highlights in her sisters hair, and she did a shitty job hahaha. so then i was like YO LEMME DO IT. so meaghan told me where to put the stuff and i did it. when meaghans mom came in from outside, she was like BLAH BLAH BLAH IT LOOKS SO STUPID IM GONNA SHAVE YOUR HEAD BLAH BLAH GO WASSH THE STUFF OUT. god i hate her mom. shes so negative, ABOUT EVERYTHING. okay so she washed it out, and dried her hair and it came out really nice, of course her mom disagreed. everyone else thought it came out nice. I AM THE MASTER ATTTT DYING HAIR! :) we had dinner, then me and meaghan had some alone time in the backyard ;) lmao. it was soooo fucking hot outside, holy shit. and then before we went inside i carried meaghan and went through some random sprinkler :)
then i went home.nighhht
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MA wasn't that bad i guess. me & my dad got there arooound 5:30? i left at like 9AM. he had to make a few stops and had to attend a meeting before we went. after we got to the house, we visited my grandfather in the nursing home. he doesnt really make any sense half the time hes talking. one time he started singing, and a few times he would think he was washing his hands or something. and more. its only cause of the painkillers and morphine (sp?). i kind of feel bad for my dad, but idk, im not close with my grandfather, and i hate to say it, but it really has no impact on me. :/. urgh w.e
but i basically spent friday and saturday arguing with my dad about how i was getting an attitude with him? haha ok.
today wass prettty good tho :)
i got around 2. and then took a shower, studied. and at around 6 i went to meaghans. had dinner there, and we walked to cumberland. i couldnt kiss her today :( i got a cold sore, but its going away thhhank god. her mom left me, meaghan, her sister, her sisters friends, her brother, and his girlfriend home alone for a while SURPRISINGLY. jeeezzeee i cant believe she would do that considering we might have some kind of party, or have sex, or do drugs, I DONT KNOW SOMETHING. lol..i think her moms starting to like me more, so yeah
after meaghans i went to alyssas, and hung out with her and emily, and a little bit with her cousin alex who came up from kenntucky or something.
well, my goal within the next two weeks is to get down to 135lbs. im hoping i can do it. im huge.
okay im out.
LOVETONE.
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so maybe ill try this again.
schools finaaaally out. but i defintly just failed my math b regents todday. i didnt know SHIT. i guess on EVERYTHING, and i put down bullshit answers. global waas alright..the multiple choice was ridiculous.
today was alright though. kaitlyn ditched me, but, its all good. im not going to try to hang out with people who dont want to. mad people kind of just stopped talking to me when school ended but i guess thats just how it is oh well.
i got to hang out with meaghan today tho :)
we walked to cumberland, and i got food (as usual), and then we played baseball with macy (her younger sister). i have to admitt, i had fun :)i love her so muuuuch. after meaghan's i was gonna go to britney's, but my dad was being a douche, WHAT ELSE IS NEW? haha.
me & britney are going to have a contest! and im going to win! :)
tomorrow im going to MA for a day or two with my dad for fathers day? to be honest he deserves nothing more than a mothers day card. :) ill shut up now.
NIIIGHT
love, tone
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